( Coming May 1st 2019 )
Well just when I thought nobody liked me or just when I thought I would never be able to love again here comes my “HIM” .. for years I’ve been hurt by other guys and I just felt like giving up and not giving anybody else the chance to break my heart again .
I go to Christ Haven and we have a fellowship on every 5th Sunday where we went to various locations and fellowshipped with about 5-6 different churches and my”HIM” was a part of one of those churches.. I noticed “HIM” but honestly I wasn’t a fan nor did I pay “HIM” any mind. But he said he was interested in me for the longest and made previous attempts to try to talk to me. His mom is the one who told him to give it shot. So the one day he decided not come to 5th Sunday fellowship in 2015, I was there and our choir had to sing and I led the choir. His sister recorded us and posted it on Facebook. Next thing I know I saw a comment from him on the post asking about me and after that he slid in my dm’s(inbox ). I was so over talking, dating or even entertaining guys at this point. He’s the First guy I ever talked to that wanted to get to know me as a person and not just what I had to offer.. I still had my guard up, was giving him one word answers like hey, ok, good, nothing, and yes. In March 2015 I stopped playing hard to get and that is when he asked for my number. I told him “as long as you don’t get on my nerves we can text,” and he’s been getting on my nerves since then!!!.. My “HIM” was Ricky T Bowman..
We started texting and talking on the phone every day, all day and night . I started falling for Ricky. He was just too good to be true lol. My previous relationships we made it official right away or weeks later, but I guess because I played hard to get he made me wait for him to ask me to be his girlfriend 8 months later, on Nov 2nd 2015. He texted it to me and I sent it to my close friends and was hype like “ITS OFFICIAL!!!!!!!” I started the hashtag #FutureBowmans .. We started talking about marriage and how we were going to spend the rest of our lives together and I just felt like it was all a dream.. He then moved from Coatesville to Philly to be closer to me and started going to Christ Haven with me.. We had ups and downs but our downs wasn’t between me and him it was the fact that we both weren’t working (due to me being injured at work and him just moving to Philly and having a fresh start), I lived with my god sister, and he lived with his dad, times where we couldn’t see each other and then I got the worst phone call ever! Ricky was arrested in Sept 2016! The worst three months of my life.. He spent our first year anniversary in jail!! Just when I thought things could get any worst I found out I was pregnant …… just kidding Lmboo we decided in our relationship that we wouldn’t be sexually intimate and we would wait on the lord!!! Ricky was then released from jail on house arrest for a couple weeks.. Last court date all charges dropped and I cried like a baby!! I didn’t have to see him in that ugly orange jumpsuit, talk to him on a recorded line and my conversations weren’t timed anymore!
A month later in December on Christmas Ricky surprisingly purchased me a promise ring and asked me to promise him that I’ll keep riding this wave with him FOREVER and of course I said I promise.
A year later December 31, Ricky asked me to be his wife and I SAID YES! It was one of the Best days of my life, family and friends were there and tears of joy rolled down my face and then we had some planning to do .. Planning a wedding and planning to move into our new home was soooo much work and we only have 8 months to do so.. In the midst of that we were going to Pre-Marital where we learned a lot about marriage and still learning!! Ricky and I got married August 25, 2018 and the vow in sickness and in Health had been the first vow we had to live and our first test.. I was rushed to the hospital with severe pains I could barely walk, lay, or sit..and Ricky my husband has been there for me every step of the way .. He helped me get dress, cooked for me , helped me walk, fed me, bathed me, rubbed where it hurt, went to the store at random times for me, prayed for me, encouraged me to get better and sooo on and until this day he is still doing so!!!
God has been in the middle of our relationship and I just know as long as he is that we would last forever! !! I thank God for all of our supporters and prayer warriors and those who have believed in us. And may god continue to bless our union!
Below is one of my favorite scriptures. Curious to know your thoughts. Is this a scripture that you were aware of when you got married or engaged? if so did you apply it? If you are single is this something that you will want to apply to your marriage? overall what is your take on this verse ? please leave a comment below!
“When a man hath taken a new wife, he shall not go out to war, neither shall he be charged with any business: but he shall be free at home one year, and shall cheer up his wife which he hath taken.”
King James Version (KJV)
We Had the The privilege of being apart of this beautiful broadcast presented by Jessica Dixon.P.S. this is our first time on Television.How fitting that it’s about marriage!
Isaiah 41:13 says, “For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.”
This is the scripture the Lord spoke to me the morning of Monday, December 4, 2017, the day that changed the life of my husband, Travis and I forever. The Saturday prior to this day, my husband and I were in our bathroom looking in utter shock and amazement at a pregnancy test that showed a positive result. All I could say was, “oh my gosh, oh my gosh is this really correct?” Travis immediately started tearing up as he already knew the result was accurate. He was the one that told me to take it that morning because I had been displaying symptoms of nausea and frequent urination that whole week. But I had no idea that I would actually test positive on the pregnancy test because I had just tested negative on one not too long ago. So, just to be sure, we scheduled an appointment with Amnion Pregnancy Center, a non-profit Christian organization right up the street, unbeknown to us! Interesting right? So, long story short, I was due to go in for my appointment Monday morning to confirm whether or not we were indeed expecting. I was lying there in our bed just thinking and feeling so many different emotions and thoughts. What if I really am pregnant? What if it’s a false alarm? What if I miscarry? Am I ready to be a mother? What if something happens to me during labor? How painful is it going to be? And the list goes on and on. As my eyes welled up with tears, I picked up my cell phone and went to my Bible app to read, and there it was, the verse of the Day: Isaiah 41:13. As I read the verse I burst into tears as the Lord spoke directly to my spirit. I began to thank God and worship Him and praise Him in advance for all He was going to do for Travis and me. It was in that moment that I already knew that we were expecting for sure, and immediately the fear had left. Blessed assurance and peace rested upon me at that very moment. But most importantly, the Lord had given me a promise that He would be with me during this pregnancy and that He is going to help me through it all.
So here we are, 5 months later, and at an all-time high in this journey we call pregnancy. The Lord is daily keeping His promise to me and Travis and after all my morning sickness, suffering hormonal and emotional roller coasters, and even a season of depression, the Lord has restored my joy, strength, peace and happiness like nobody’s business! I am so thrilled and happy to announce that as of Tuesday, March 20, 2017, Travis and I are expecting our first, precious little baby boy! God is so awesome! It was funny because the whole time Travis thought we were having a girl, but a part of me knew the whole time that it was going to be a boy. I actually dreamt about holding a boy some weeks before we found out that we were expecting, so I held on to that dream in the recesses of my mind, and to my amazement it has come to fruition.
When Travis and I were watching our baby on the ultra sound on Tuesday, all I could do was laugh and smile as he moved and kicked me (lol). And then the moment came when we both saw the “undeniable proof” that the baby was in fact a boy; we both let out a gasp and said “oh my gosh it’s a boy!” I couldn’t stop laughing and saying “I knew it, I knew it!” and Travis was holding back tears as he said, “Wow, I thought it was a girl, I’m having a boy first?!” We spent all day and evening calling family members to spread the great news, and I could just see the happiness in my husband’s eyes as he expressed his joy and anticipation of raising his first-born son. As I looked at my husband, I thought to myself, and to God, “Wow, I thank You for choosing me to carry and bring forth his son into this world and to fulfill my calling as a mother to raise up a mighty man of God in this Earth.” I also thought about the lessons I have learned in such a short span of time in our marriage.
In the past 5 months, Travis and I have gone through a few hurdles while adjusting to the pregnancy. There were times when I would become so emotional and overwhelmed for no reason at all. Sometimes I would just be super hungry, super cranky and super tired, and would cry because of it. Thankfully, there were times when my wonderful husband would go out, even if it was at midnight, to pick me up whatever food I was craving. And then there were those times where I would become super sensitive during disagreements and lash out on Travis because I felt like he wasn’t understanding me or giving me the attention, I continuously nagged him for. Of course, this was all new to Travis, so he didn’t understand at first what I was experiencing physically, emotionally and mentally from being pregnant, and unfortunately, I would become so emotional that I failed at communicating exactly what I wanted or needed from him; sometimes I didn’t even know what it was that I wanted or needed. As a result, this created an atmosphere of frustration for the both of us at home. But the hardest part of the pregnancy for the both of us was when I was forced to take a break from my job because I was missing too many days from being so sick. I honestly felt bad about this. I felt like I had let my husband and my job down because of the pregnancy. I didn’t realize it at first, but I slowly slipped into a depression. With all this time on my hands at home, I didn’t know what to do with myself at first. For several days in a row I would just sleep and do nothing. I hated being home alone, but at the same time I was so depressed I didn’t want to do anything outside either. It got to a point where Travis sat me down and told me this isn’t healthy anymore. You have to get out and do something, for you and the baby. Of course, I cried and yelled and made all the excuses in the world as to why I didn’t want to. I even blamed him at one point for my misery. But, today I am so glad I listened to my husband. After the talk, my husband graciously let me take a break from home for about a week. This abrupt getaway turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I didn’t realize it until I changed my environment for this short period of time, that I wasn’t doing productive things at home, like I should have been while waiting to work again. Being able to step back and put everything into perspective I realized that I needed to PRAY. Being away from my husband that week completely ignited an appreciation within me for him that I had never experienced before. I also realized that I fell off a lot from praying for certain things in our marriage, praying for other people and needs beyond myself, and even being submissive. When I came back home to my husband, I made a resolve that things would be different moving forward. I was going to get my fight back for my family, my marriage and my prayer life. I had to reset and get my priorities back in order and realize that we are about to bring a child into this world and he deserves to be raised in a stable, healthy and spiritually sound environment. So, I put my “big girl pants” on and put my faith into action. I got back home, changed my attitude, and my husband and I talked over habits we needed to reform, as well as things that needed to change in our home. Since then we have been praying together again every morning, communicating with each other more openly and lovingly, I have also been making a conscious effort every day to stay in reading the Word of God and in prayer and to allow the Holy Ghost to take control of my life. But just as important as that, I have also been putting the needs of my husband and my home first; which is what we as wives are called to do and will be judged for. I’ve learned that submission to God and your husband changes everything for the better. When you take a moment to step back and actually listen to God and your husband, life will get so much easier for you and your family. Your marriage will be transformed right in front of your eyes and your prayer life will take flight. I am learning that in life, as a saved young woman of God, when you place Jesus first, your family second and yourself last, everything will fall into place according to God’s design and you Will be blessed beyond measure. This is one of the many lessons Travis and I plan to instill into the life of our little baby boy.
There is no Secret that in marriage arguments will occur. Conflict in marriage can be poisonous if not handled the right way. Dominating an argument can leave your spouse feeling rejected, and fighting in front of your children can make them feel insecure and possibly develop attachment issues. In many marriages you will find that unhealthy conflict has become the norm. You may be the person who shuts down during arguments or perhaps you are the type that gets so mad that the whole neighborhood hears you. Maybe you are the type that brings up the past when you are in an argument or you might remain calm but calls another later to gossip. None of these are better than the other, they are all bad. As a Newlywed or someone contemplating marriage, you have to realize that fighting fair is a skill you have to master for a healthy Marriage. During the dating phase the relationship is superficial, both individuals are putting their best self forward, so arguments may be non- existent. When you get married and live together (I strongly advise not to live with your partner until marriage- another blog for another day) it’s a different ball game. It doesn’t matter how much you and your spouse have in common, you are both very different, even if you both serve the lord. You will find that the way you celebrate holidays and birthdays are different, your concept of Family is different, the way you handle conflict will be different. You might find that the way your respective families handle conflict will affect the way your spouse handles it. It is key for you to identify your conflict style early to prevent hurting your spouse. I realized that my Family is very blunt and we say how we feel, if you don’t know us that can come off as mean and abusive verbally. That aspect of me didn’t magically go away because I said “I do”. We must find out what our style is so we will not offend one another. At the beginning of my marriage my wife was the type that would shut down whenever I had an issue with something, this created a problem for me because it made me think that my wife did not care about how I felt. It caused arguments to blow out of proportion, to the point where we forgot what we were initially arguing about. We learned that to help one another we had to change. I needed her to show interest when I wanted to talk to her about something. I had to use my words wisely, not use words that hurt her. I want to offer a few tips in this blog to help readers fight fair. Here they are
General Hot-Button Issues
- Never compare your husband to another man. This includes, but is not limited to, your father, brother, men you have dated and other men in general.
- Men, never Compare your Wife to another woman, especially your Mother. Understand that your mother and your wife play two different roles. Your mother Raised you and was always a nurturer to you, your Wife is your Equal, she did not raise you so don’t expect her to treat you the same way your mother does. Don’t compare your wife’s food to your mom’s food and foolish things like that.
- Never criticize a man’s ability to provide for his family
- Never criticize a women Ability to provide care for her family.
If you do find yourself in an argument, stay on topic; don’t use this time venturing into your spouse’s past. Bringing up his/her past is actually condemning him/her. If you are in an argument about spending habits, keep the topic on that, don’t bring up an issue from years ago, you will never resolve the issue at hand.
Respect one Another
Don’t yell , especially in front of Kids. Remember a soft answer will turn away wrath. Also give your spouse eye contact when you speak to one another. Sometimes a soft touch while talking will calm a situation down. Don’t call each other names; you’re not in elementary school. Do not bring up divorce and don’t say other things you are going to regret. Stay away from phrases like “You always do this” or you never help me out. Words like always and never are blanket statements and should not be used. Don’t walk away abruptly or turn your back when your spouse is speaking to you. Watch your body language; body language speaks volumes to your spouse.
Don’t argue just to Argue
Argue with a goal. Arguments can be healthy when done right. Always look for a resolution. If you can’t find one, talk about it another time. Timing is important; you can’t always talk when you feel like it. Never argue in front of family, kids, church, while at work or over the phone. Ask your spouse if it is a good time to talk about it and if they say no, accept it and pick another time.
When hurtful things are done, learn to forgive. Do not over analyze forgiveness. Give a second chance. Sometimes we are so hurt we can’t forgive because we can’t understand how spouse can be inconsiderate of feelings. Don’t analyze every motive or reason, just forgive. Because honestly there are times when the motive was to hurt you, but if they are asking for forgiveness, forgive. If they are not Sincere, God will not allow them to get away with it. Trust God, he is sovereign.
Dreams, Visions, Thoughts and strong feelings preceded conformation. I had a feeling- but how can we be sure about these things right? We really didn’t plan it, as a matter fact we took measures to prevent it, But as we learned, when its time-its time! Sporadically I would dream about curly hair, little sensitive toes, and big beautiful Eyes. I fell in-love in record-time, I never fell in love with anyone this fast before. I wake up on 12/2 and the words just come out of my mouth instantly, I say “Wifey Take this” and she does. We see one line and we have a quick sigh of relief, I leave her for a moment heading to our bedroom. Then I hear “Oh My God” I run back to my wife and immediately the narrative changes, one line changes into two! She is hysterical (Happy) at this point and can’t believe it. I am equally happy. “We are expecting “She says. We quickly make an appointment with a doctor and we tell our love ones. The doctor confirmed the Pregnancy . Christmas came early us. Please pray for a Healthy Pregnancy and healthy delivery for our child, this will be our first. I often joke with my wife about #TeamBoy however I am happy either way! Wanted to share this beautiful moment with my readers!
There may be two in there!!
Whether you have the best career you could’ve ever asked for, or you hate your job tremendously, we all have bad days at work. Whether you run your own business, work for a company or serve your community, stressful days are guaranteed. Like most of us, when I venture home my wife awaits. Often I walk in the door and just want to skip everything, and immediately jump in my bed. However, she has needs as well and without any warning she goes off, talking about anything and everything. Suddenly, those lips that I love become a curse when they move. Her voice that is usually so angelic to me becomes a snare, and her body language is causing me to roll my eyes. I remain quiet for a couple of minutes until I have heard enough. Then she asks me the worst question she could possibly ask in this moment “How was work”? At this point I lose it! I take all of my stress out on my helper, I belittle her because I felt belittled at work, and I abuse her with your words because I felt beat-up at work. I gave all my energy to work but I forgot to save some energy for my family. I forgot to hit the “refresh button” and leave my daily stresses at the door. This is a lesson I had to learn early in my marriage because I was that guy that wanted to be angry after work and not deal with my family as if it was their fault. My wife would feel rejected from me. This was not good for our marriage and needed to be fixed.
I learned that my wife meant well. She truly was concerned and she did not deserve my anger. I decided that no matter how bad or stressful work was that day, before I walked in my home I would leave work behind, leave stress behind. The ride home was my time to prepare. Prayer was key; my prayer was always a prayer of thanks. “Lord I thank you for my occupation, lord I thank you for my wife, Lord I cast all my cares and stress on you, help me to be a blessing to my wife”. This helped me so much. There were times when I needed more than prayer, sometimes just stopping somewhere and making a purchase helped. Going to the gym before stopping home would clear my mind as well; just make sure you communicate with your spouse before you make a stop. The truth is I give 100% at work and my wife deserves more than the work does. This is a principle you can apply throughout your entire marriage, give your wife more energy than work, never put any business venture before your family and always refresh before you come home. Now When I hear “Hun how was work”? It sparks the most fulling conversations in our home. Remember to hit the refresh button